Scream

I’ve been trying to write something ever since the course started. A few days in, I really tried to write something but it felt like screaming into my hands. There was so much I wanted to say but I just couldn’t find the right words, or the words just didn’t do my feelings justice. Putting words to my feelings just felt inane and empty. How can I possibly summarize what I experienced during the past few days into mere words? I’ve been asked by family, friends and students to tell them about my days and what I’ve learned. But how? I haven’t learned anything new, I’ve experienced it. I have experienced, for just a brief moment of my life, what it’s like to be a woman. I experienced what it’s like to be on the receiving end of cat calling, harassment, sexual violence, humiliation and domination. I’m not saying that I know what it’s like to be a woman or that I understand women. But just for a few days; I’ve seen it, felt it, hated it

My biggest take-away from the course has been emotional, not technical. My job now is to turn these feelings into action and into knowledge. I really would love to do a full summary of the course and tell you guys about all that we did and all the fun we had. Of course it’s fun to see your colleagues run around in heels, dresses and wigs. But there was always this cloud of seriousness following us throughout the course. I think this cloud will follow me for a long time, reminding me of the serious matters at hand. 

A massive shoutout and thank you to Gracia Ho-Asjoe, for being an amazing teacher and instructor throughout this course. If you ever have the chance to attend a seminar or a workshop with her, do it. Regardless of your gender, but especially if you’re a woman. You will not regret it. 

For those of you who are already in the KMG system, the Women Instructor Course is a must. 

Stay strong!